Thursday, January 14, 2010

Me&U





Me&U..

Don't you love it when you tell someone "keep this between me&u"
Then they tell some one else and say, "keep this between me&u"
Now everyone got something to say about what we do.
But it's ok cause the only ones in this is me&u.
And she don't even got a man but got so much to say about me&u
Since she has all the answers,
You would think she'd have a man too.
The blind can't lead the blind so you should just do you.
That's why I don't discuss what happens with me&u
No one else understands the things that we go through.
The first thing they would ask is why I'm still with you.
But where were they when shit went down it was just me&u
When I didn't have a dime, it was just me&uAnd every tear that I cried, it was just me&uBut now things have changed and I'm worried about me&u.
The futures starting to look a little blurry for me&uAll these new "friends"
What happen to me&u?
We barley even speak, what are you trying to do?
You act like you don't care, what are you trying to prove
So now I had enough and it's over wit me&uNow everyone is wondering whatsup wit me&uYou left me with no choice but to give up on me&u
But when it's all said and done I got nothing but love for you
Not a nigga before or after can compare to me&u
And although I'm with him, I still think about you
And I know you're somewhere thinking of me too
So what happens from here is up to me&uBut this time let's be clear, and keep it... between
me&u!

Sunday, January 10, 2010

....With all of my heart



Do you know that I love you, with all of my heart?
and everything I give you comes from within.
This is not just a figure of speech nor is it just something to say, this is how I really feel. Any woman can make love to a faithful man because its just them two But I have to share my object of affection. Which means I have to give you more, and twice as much to make sure that you always come back. I have to stimulate not just your body but also your mind. That way you think of ME when she puts us on the line.I say us because everything I have is invested in you. So think of me even when I'm not there to defend US. I have to act like nothing bothers me and always play cool because when you have doubts, I have to remind you but quick question ...do you know that I love you with all of my heart?

I love you like no one is watching... Like no one is judging or calling me out of my name. I love you like this has been approved like my friends and family thinks it’s okay. I love you like SHE doesn't exist and like he's not hatin and people aint staring. Don't I make it look easy? It's genuine, it's sincere, That's because in case u didn't know...I love you with all of my heart.

If my feelings were allegations I would go to tria,l plead the fifth and take my chances…and it would be time well spent. The evidence is clear from the moment I saw u my heart beat my mind in making the decision.....I love you with all of my heart

And one might think you have everything to lose and me on the other hand I living care free. They couldn't be more wrong because I'm taking the chance of losing my sanity. Before you there were few but after you I will never be the same! I could wake up tomorrow and this could all be a game. you will simply return to what you had before.I on the other hand will start the beginning of the end. Because I love you, with all of my heart. So what would be left to give another?

And with all of my heart I love you with nothing but HOPE! Hope That you feel the same, no contract no vows no witnesses just your word!Your words that I hold onto so dearly. So I hope that it’s not just pillow talk when you tell me "I aint goin nowhere" and I hope that u mean when u kiss me so deep that I start to believe that your only kissing me. And I hope that you mean it when u say you will always be there. Cause sometimes when I call and you don't answer there are thoughts that start to cross my mind. And when hours turn into days I start to sweat like slave thinking my worst nightmare has come true.

But you never let me down because you always return and unlike HER I don't interrogate, i only have one question.....do u know that I love you with all of my heart?

Saturday, January 9, 2010

Is it Me or is it you?


Its not about the title he gives you, it’s about the role you play in the relationiship. Don’t be so quick to think your TITLE has significance! Sometimes the “side-chick” gets treated better then the girlfriend; Sometimes the mistress gets treated better then the wife, sometimes the AFFAIR holds more value than the RELATIONSHIP……
Im not speaking in the case of a “jumpoff” or a one night stand. I’m speaking of the kind of relationship that goes deeper then sex. Two people who have connected over time. I just may start off as lust but it can grow into love and before you know it your in a triangle of some sort. You know you should but cant walk away. you know its wrong, but it feels so right, and you tell yourself everytime is going to be the “last time”. So I wanna open up some dialogue between us ; the women with the titlte and the one her man is cheating with. Because in order to beat the competition, you must first understand them.
Hopefully this sheds light on why the i stick around. Or even more, make you wonder why the women in the relationship stays??? The woman in the relationship will have you believe that she has the upper hand by proclaiming that she is LOVED. This may be true, but she is also lied to, manipulated, and mislead. However as the “mistress” I always know wassup! I always know where he is what he’s doing who he’s with. He doesn’t have to lie to me. He spends all his free time creeping away from you, only to get closer to me. Holidays, special occasions, celebrations , all spent with me! Im his MAIN concern your on the SIDE lines! So the question is who’s the mistress…..is it me or is it you?

Monday, January 4, 2010

My name is BlackMarilynn, nice to meet you ;-)


I don’t just want what I can’t have, I’m in love with it. It's so hard to except the fact that I can’t have something when it's already mine! Growing up I was called rebellious, I would like to think I’m ambitious. Some might say I’m in denial but I like to think I’m optimistic. One thing’s for sure, I seem to attract the right men at the wrong time and I’m sure they agree. To know me is to love me and that feeling is mutual my name is BlackMarylinn, nice to meet you ;-)