Love Letter

Dear Heart, I promise not let anyone break you again. I’m going to use better judgment next time I give you away…IF I ever gave you away again. I’m sorry for all that I put you through, I hope you forgive Me. Next time you love, I’ll make sure you get loved back. I admire you; you are stronger than I will ever be. I'm still recovering from the last time, but last time was the last time! Because next time, Im going to listen to what my mind tells me! Don’t believe what he said; it was all lies, both the good and the bad. There’s nothing wrong with you! Its not that you’re not good enough, it’s just that you deserve more then what he’s willing to give. In due time you will have it all! Just continue to LOVE YOURSELF! Get closer to God and he will send you someone that will strengthen, rebuild, and appreciate you. I hope these words console you, after all that I’ve done, it’s the least I can do, Love you always, XOXO Ms.Rae

Sun Rise

When you stay the night I can't sleep; cause in that moment reality is better than my dreams. And when the sun rises, It doesn't feel early, It feels like the beginning of the end. It's bitter sweet, before you even leave I'm wondering When will I see you again? You leave my heart on edge, You leave my mind in suspense, You leave my nerves in disarray, You leave my body feeling tense! You leave!! And that's when I realize, this is why I fuck with you! Cause if it was to easy, You wouldn't be able to please me! It must be the challenge of it all that intrigues me… When I think about you I say, "Damn, I wish somebody loved me like that" I wish somebody admired me, the way I admire you. I look for confirmation in the things that you say but they don't always coincide with the things that you do. Why do I this to myself? I tried to move on but the truth is...I don’t want nobody else!! You shouldn't want nobody else!! And when I'm with you I feel like somebody else. A room full of people but I don't see anybody else, Just you. You don't believe what I say, That's why I go hard to get you to recognize it in the things that I do. You’re sleeping on me... And when I look at you it feels like a day dream. At this very moment, I want you to stay sleep. You sleep so peacefully… I don't want the sun to rise. ‘cause that’s the beginning of the end And I'll think of you all day, until I see you again.

My Prayer

ONLY GOD CAN JUDGE ME!
No Human is above me
Pray for those who hate me
And bless the ones who love me.
Before you go astray from me,
Just try to spend a day with me
I’m blessed for what I have,
But please continue to pray for me.
Keep the devil away from me!
Because he is a liar…
And all praises due to the Lord Jehovah Jirah
Always keep the faith,
Even in the unseen
One of my favorite scripture; Isaiah 54:17
No weapons formed against me,
Shall ever achieve
Just continue to believe,
John 3:16!
And no I’m not a saint
And just because you go to church, you ‘aint!
“THOU SHAL NOT JUDGE”
So be careful what you think!
Forgive me for trespassing,
Forgive me for my debts,
Forgive me for all my sins,
THANK GOD I’ve been kept!
Carry me when I can’t walk,
Speak for me when I can’t talk,
Prevent the wrong actions by monitoring my thoughts.
I promise to keep you first,
Please keep me from temptations to sin,
In the name of the heavenly father,
Let us all say “Amen”

FUNNYSTYLE

Hater in disguise
You waiting on my demise
You showed me your true face
And I'm not even surprised
You FUNNYSTYLE
And I knew it along
That's why I kept you close
And listen to you like a song
Funnystyle peeps are always lingering about
Everybody has them,
Let me help u point ‘em out;
Be careful for the ones that always got something to say
They're quick to get mad when u don't do things their way
They give u blind advice which means they don't talk how they live
They'll let you bend over backwards
And receive more then they give.
They smile in your face,
Talk behind your back
They can't wait for you to go
Then beg you to come back
Funnystyle!
All you can do is laugh
They’re not worth your energy
So just leave them in your past.
A funnystyle chic are the ones that get ill!
They wait ‘til u start shinning, !then all the sudden they want to chill!
As long as you’re miserable she will be your best friend,
Which means she hates to see you smile or find a good man!
And a funnystyle dude
Is all for himself!
He'll eat off your plate
And keep his food on the shelf!
He's the type that got a cup,
But didn't chip in
He'll throw u under the bus, to holla at your girlfriend!
Funnystyle right?
And they’re full of subliminals
So when u say something
They're quick to take it personal
But real recognize real and that is unfamiliar
You funnystyle that's why,
Now the pictures looking clearer.

Body Language

My body wants to meet you,
My lips want to greet you,
My arms want to hold you tight and never release you
My heart is saying "baby you are welcomed here",
I haven’t said a word but my body language is loud and clear!

My hands want to touch you and slowly get acquainted,
My fingertips want to walk around in unfamiliar places.
My eyes are telling you that you can trust me
And the look in your eyes is saying you want to touch me.
I think It’s time for our bodies to have a conversation
My mind is need of some deep stimulation
My Body langunge
Is Fluent in penetration
Let your body speak now
Please don’t keep me waiting

Its funny how neither one of us has even said a word
No words have been spoken;
Just sensual verbs.
Your body is speaking
My body is heard
Listen very closely
And then you will hear....
Its the language of our bodies speaking loud and clear.

WRITE

I feel like Lauren Hill in the late 90's
Gone crazy
And can't nobody find me
Wat you see on the outside
Doesn't reflect what's inside me
Easier said then done it is
To leave my past behind me.
What if I told you I was only here for 2 reasons:
My 2 little sisters arr the motivation that keep me breathing.
And I know if keep my faith then in due season;
God will bless me if only I do what he pleases.
Its the sins of my flesh that are so appeasing
Its the sin of the enemy that keeps teasing
And its the enemy within that keeps defeating..
The woman vs. the girl that keeps competing.
Its the lies that I've been told from the love that turned cold
Its hate disguised as friends from people who were really foes.
Its the consequences of bad decisions that I chose
Its a defensive mechanism when I keep my heart closed!
Its the very first person who broke it!
Not the first man I had,
but the man with the DNA I was born with!
The one who I never met
And the ones who I wont forget
And the ones who made it so hard for the man that's coming next!
Its the fact that I've worked so hard to get here,
Then I look up and realize that I've made it nowhere
Its the passion that I have inside...
Its my own thoughts that keep me up at night
Then I look at this pen
Which is a symbol of my life!
That's when I realize
Only I can make it "WRITE!"

Broken Hearted Divah

I can't cry over you cause my lashes cost to much
And you aint even worth the smudge of my mascara!
My 5 inch heels won't let me chase you
Plus I don't wanna ruin my $300 hair!
If I held my head down who would see my pretty face?
Which is covered lightly in the finest cosmetics by the way?
If I didn't walk with a strut then it wouldn't be right
And I was to busy having fun to notice you didn't call me last night!
If I had low self esteem your new chick might get to me
But she's so basic that she don't exist to me!
Its not by any chance that I love you any less
But you broke the heart of a divah
What do expect?
My pride is much bigger then
Issues we have
So I can't sit around with tissues looking sad
Cause at the end of the day...
YOU LOST ONE!
And my next is on his way
But when its all said done..
Underneath this green eyeshadow
I'm hiding my fears..
Trying to hold back
All These designer tears.
But the way she crack that million dollar smile you won't believe her
The truth is on the low...
She's a broken hearted divah!